me ! I Am Illustrator And I Love The Author!

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1;God
2;The Author
3;Drawing
4;Food
5;Reading

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1;Meggy!
2;this
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tagboard N

credits B

designer; BLACK.dust
picture; x
brushes; x; x; x; x

Sunday, January 13, 2008

I'm Back.. Am I?

 Hi to all... finally got my internet back on... hmmmm should I be feeling happy or something?

The answer is not really... Today's one of those days.. I dunno why.. But its just the kind of day where everything just seems to fade.. everywhere you look. No matter how hard you try to smile you could feel a block, and the smile of the heart stops in midstep.. Like gravity doubling over and multiplying.. Where you move your hand through air and yet you feel a weird sense of weight. Its terrible.. I'm scared of this. I know it, it reduces me to a mess, with tomorow promising more of the same. I'm hoping that typing this out would ease it, however slightly.. but what I need is a large field, a starry sky. A place to scream where no one could hear. Is there such a place? Until I find it.. guess i'll just swallow it. Like I always do.. Just swallow it as i scream silently in the utter darkness of the room I loathe so much. Where am I now? Nowhere... not since then have I been..
 
EDIT: Hmmmm STOP! I'm smiling now.. Oh my I forgot something.. How could I? No.. I've moved.. and I never knew.. haha.. So it takes a song to remind me.. ^^

swallowed at 4:27 AM